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| We hang out more than normal friends i'd say... but where's the line? Where is the boundary between good friends and relationship? Or maybe there isn't a line at all! Maybe i'm just stuck in an endless loop of friendzone relationships... there's gotta be a way out! x.x
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| Hahahaha xanga is craaaaaazyyy now (sorta)...
I moved over to blogspot.com... but i think i'm gonig to post here for more personal stuff?? maybeee
http://treasureincloset.blogspot.com/
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| Hello Xangar people,
Right now I'm waiting for my dad to take me to the Doctor's and drinking as much water as possible so i can pee later (for urine test) hahaha since i REALLY had to go when i woke up... xD ... so from time to time i indulge in music, whatever it may be, music videos, lyrics, or discovering new music! Last night i was watching videos of a recent concert by DJ Tiesto somewhere in Europe prolly. Tiesto is basically awesome, but anyways i got around to getting his new album, Elements of Life, then i saw he was on tour with it... and saw that he was in the USA and well yes i want to go to a concert!!!! Hopefully i can get people to go with me though.. the one I'd want to go to is in Washington DC near the end of June... it's the only one that is within reason since the ones in Boston are 21+ concerts/clubs, and the ones in NYC are 19+ (what's up with 18?! gotta hate?!), but luckily in DC there's two nights, one with 21+ and one with 18+... those are the 3 closest cities... well maybe in CT, but i'll be in Florida when Tiesto is in CT. So yeaaa it would be amazing to go... and i also hope tiesto is still spinning records when i turn 21 so i can go to more of his concerts!
On the note of the music itself.... well, no music can really beat what trance does to you as a person, in your mind, and just the ambiance it sets. Trance or progressive trance relaxes your mind and opens your mind up to thoughts you usually dont think about on a daily basis. This is not to say you put more stress on your mind, but these are thoughts that, i feel, enable us to interpret the indepth-ness of certain aspects of our life.... but hell this could be just ME and what trance does to ME... for others it could be any sort of music... but i really do believe everyone loves trance/techno right?! lol Trance also calms your mind and can very well put you to sleep if you want to go to sleep, I myself have experienced listening to techno/trance while driving and have caught myself dozing off... but you say techno? sleepyness? nevarrrrr! That's true in the sense that techno/trance usually has an upbeat to it so you'd think that it makes you stay up longer, but it's really your state of mind... It can get your pumped for something or as i said before -calm you. then again there are also different types of techno to listen to sooo it kinda varies on that too, whether it be with vocals (my fav) or just beats and melodies, and many... many subsets!
Ok my dad's ready to take me... hopefully the doctor doesn't tell me bad things lawlz.
Thanks for reading.
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| So looking at my life right now... i can't complain TOO much... but just spending a few minutes looking at it all... it seems like there's something either wrong or maybe i'm doing something wrong... recently i've been going with the flow of things, enjoying the little things here and there. And there's definitely nothing wrong with that... but i feel I'm missing something... I have no 'chase' in my life right now to be plain and simple, i use to a month or two back, but it's sorta vanished since there's no way i can 'work on it'... if you get my drift... lol i never be clear on these kinds of things... just kinda hint towards it.. anyways ---maybe i'm being selfish when i think about it... is it right to want something in my life that i can look forward to? more specifically someone? I mean i definitely keep myself busy on a day to day basis... but i just have to WORK on something besiiides school work... i like to interpret things in my life, but right now there really isn't anything intriguing to interpret... does that even make sense?! haha
Sometimes i feel i'm on too much of a formal level with a lot of people... not to say i dont have my close friends... it's just that... i like to build on friendships and relationships a lot, it's fun, you get to know another person better and such and hopefully they feel the same way back and boom you've got a nice thing going.
mmm i dunno... i'm always stuck in this situation... i'm waiting for something to come.. then when something does come... i think 'OH yes!!! finally!' then a little ways down the road... i fuck something up or something happens and boom i'm in the same situation from the beginning emotions toyed with and waiting for something else to come by... I can definitely recover from emotional suffering though... but it still gets to you eventually ya know? not saying i have a burden on my chest right now haha
so here i am... almost talking as if i MISS INFATUATION... sheesh that's ironic.... guess i'll just keep myself busy for the time being, waiting for the next thing to come along in my life...
I'm not sad, i'm content, i'm being optimistic in my situation... that is all.
So i dunno who reads this still.... but yeah... thanks if you do =]
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| I use to be able to write so much, I don't know where that went. There are probably foolish reasons why, some typical excuses i could give are school, busy with friends, etc... but right now i have found a time of 'rest', i should probably take this time to go to bed early, but i feel the need to stay up. I wanted to talk to someone, actually really have a conversation with someone, but everyone's too worked up in whatever. I have this feeling deep down that i'm going to hit a low time. It's just one of those things that I can always tell is coming, maybe i'm being pessimistic about it, maybe i'm not, but looking at things it's hard to make something good of it. With all the studying for finals, and lines of projects lined up, it will be hard to have fun or enjoy a conversation, but hey this is all what I think will be happening in the next couple weeks.
I told myself yesterday that i'd have a good monday, being very optimistic in it all, monday's are usually my worse days since i have 'most' of my classes (If i went to all of them that is). I woke up in a bad mood, mainly because i hadn't adjusted fully to the short hours of sleep (like 5 ish hours?) as compared to thanksgiving break. Then after that while i heading out of my building i find that it's raining sorta... mm and if you know me... rain = an enemy to my hair xD but it wasn't TOO bad... morning classes were ok... boring as usual, chem just took notes, engineering class just listened, caribbean took a nap. That's basically it for classes i had for the day, my chem rec was short and well, i never go to calc =] I had a nice nap fit into my classes it was a nice deep sleep nap, but woke up frustrated... had a nice lunch with a good friend, then i had a nice session at the gym... so overall it was a nice day... at night i went to a movie playing at afterhours, it was basically a documentary of sigur ros pretty intense at one point (near the end), but that's about it.
All in all, a fair day, few things i miss right now, but life goes on right? right...
wow i'm prolly never going to write one of these for a long time =X
Thanks for reading if you do.
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